i dont know if im doing okay in life or not, dispite having everything i wanted it all feels undeserved, my grades are like, okay i guess, its whatever i guess im passing decently. my friend group fell apart a few months back and the after event of it after like, 2-3 months still has me kinda sad over it all.

i feel as if im not okay even though i am, i have no reason not to be okay, but i feel fucked anyhow. i dont even know anymore.

i REALLY shouldn't be venting to like, a bunch of random people on fucking newgrounds but like, i couldn't care less right now

i also kinda wanna talk about this guy who i dont know if i should try making amends to even though he was in the wrong in the end of it. how it even happened was me playing slop game forsaken and i was the killer, and i was failing terribly, so i thought it would be a good idea to go after him for more time since he was ass at the game, so i targeted him (still lost) , and after that he got pissed off, and said things that were a bit personal about me. such as "mother of whore, kys" things such as that, and he KNEW that i have issues with things regarding to her, and i cant even like confront the fucker unless i ask him to unblock me. worse part is i liked him for like, maybe 8 months, even after rejection and what not so i dont know

(worse part is he did it over a video game and not something actually understandable)

but like, i might do it anyway, since i dont like having enemies, i want to remain peaceful with people, i dont want to be hated nor have a want hate others.

the friend group thing and my friend that ill keep unnamed blocking me are the two things that are just, actively bothering me, like the first part of the yapping are like, whatever i guess. it just kinda snuck in or something idk. but uhhhhhhh yeahh, ill like just post this already its 6 35 am and im cooked tmrw